Success seems to be largely a matter of hanging on after others have let go!

LÄBI! Kool on läbi ja nüüdsest võin uhke olla, et oman tunnistust mis ütleb, et olen kvalifitseeritud lasteaiaõpetaja :)
Oli hetki, mil mõtlesin, et ei suuda. Liiga palju tundus seda kõike olevat, kuid siiski ei andnud alla- tulgu mis tuleb.

Elu igapäeva situatsioonid viskavad meid tihti vetesse, mida me ei tunne. On meie valik, kas me proovime selles hakkama saada- isegi kui vahel tormisel merel suunda ei näe. Kuid kas pole vahva, et kui jääme ustavaks ja viime alustatu lõpuni, oleme taas justkui tulnud võitjaks.
Minule on nendes suurtes lainetes alati olnud suunanäitajaks ja majakaks Jumal, kui tunnen, et ise ei jaksa on hea teada, et saan alati kellelegi kindel olla. Siiani pole pidanud selles kindluses pettuma ja ma ei ütleks, et mu elu ainult lilleaasal kõndimine on olnud.

Make your fear a visitor and not a resident. Hasn’t fear taken enough? Enough smiles? Enough restful nights? Enough exuberant days?
Make it a day changer to meet your fears with faith. Choose to make every day—a great day!"

Jah, olen läbi raskuste õppinud väärtustama ilusaid hetki ja kalleid inimesi. Kuid kõige enam olen õppinud ennast väärtustama läbi selle, et mind on väärtustatud. Jumal on mind ja Sind armastanud just sellistena nagu oleme, meie vigade ja puudustega. Tänu sellele, võin tunda ennast kindlalt ükskõik mis olukorras- olgu see lähedase kaotus, raske majanduslik olukord, üksildustunne või enesekindluse puudumine.  
Kui üldiselt võivad need faktorid meie elu täiesti pea peale pöörata, siis see teadmine ja tundmine, et Sa pole üksi ja Tema ( Jumala) armastus Sinu vastu pole kuhugi kadunud, annab jõudu ja viib edasi.






If God is all you have, you have all you need.

Don’t give up on God, because He never gave up on You
God’s promises are like stars; the darker the night, the brighter they shine.
Don’t mistake God’s patience for His absence. His timing is perfect and His presence is constant. He’s always with you!
God’s plan is so high & above our understanding that the only way we’ll truly be able to fathom it is by taking this life day by day. #Truth

Life was throwing curve balls at me left and right . But then God gave me a bat and showed me how to swing .

Disappointments are just God’s way of saying: “I’ve got something better”’ Be patient, live life, have faith.

 Love,
A.

Sometimes the whole world is the person beside you

Kas südames võib tõesti olla rahu ka siis kui ümberringi kõik mässab, lokkab rahutus ja rahulolematus? Kas südames võib olla tõesti rõõm ka siis kui on raske ja lained löövad üle pea?
Jah :)

Jesus is the Fountain, yes, the Ocean, of living waters. We draw supplies from His infinite, inexhaustible fulness. "Lord, impart to me more of Yourself. Fill this heart with Your love, engrave Your image there, and let me not lose sight of You for one small moment."
Jesus is all in all to me. I feel a blessed nearness to Him, to heaven. My soul holds converse with Him, and sweet I find it to lie as a helpless infant at His feet; yes, passive in His loving hands, knowing no will but His.

Kuidas tahaksin näha suuremat pilti. Mitte olla kinni väikestes asjades- unistada suurelt ja teha väikeseid tegusid oma unistust järgides.

What a mercy, thus to unburden the whole heart; the tried and weary, the tempted and sorrowful heart; tried by sin, tried by Satan, tried by those you love! What a mercy to have a loving bosom to flee to, one truly loving heart to confide in, which responds to the faintest breathing of the Spirit! "Precious Jesus, how inexpressibly dear are You to me at this moment! Keep sensibly near to me. Lift up upon me Your heavenly countenance, for it is sweeter, dearer, better than life!"

Tunnen ennast tihti abituna, kuna tahaksin teha rohkem, näha rohkem abivajajaid enda ümber ja saada lahti "Mina egost".

Mis meil puudub? Ennastsalgav armastus. Oleme kärmed õpetussõnu jagama ja kohut mõistma. Kui kasvõi pool meie kohtumõistmise energiast läheks kellelegi kaasa tundmiseks ja reaalseteks tegudeks, oleks meil lootust.

Frozen waves

A prayer hidden and silent

Stones submerged by winter’s blanket
Covered and cold beneath the grip of frost

If they could but speak of the wishes, the hopes,
Desires and fears uttered here
Frozen in the gossamer of time

Wishes written on the footfalls and on the breezes
Of another moment, another season
Hearts open in the stillness of the walking
The mix of stones and soil, moss and grass under foot

Reverent periods of reflection
Between man and God
Cries heard in the silence beyond the field
Through the frozen prayers
In the ground.

By R.Foss

Have you ever felt like you have been praying but God hasn’t been hearing your prayer? Or maybe you have been working hard to grow in virtue but see no change in your life despite your best efforts? Maybe you’ve felt like you just don’t know how to pray anymore, although you continue to set aside time to be with Him...
Let’s put a pot of ice water on the stove and turn on the heat. We will watch the temperature on a thermometer to measure the change in water temperature as the pot sits on the heat, and we won’t look inside that pot. Now, if we watch that thermometer for a while, we will begin to think that nothing is happening. Heat is being applied to the water, but the water isn't feeling warmer.

Suddenly there is a rise in temperature! How can the water go from cold to hot so quickly? Well, the water temperature doesn't rise - it doesn’t change - until all the ice is melted. It seems as though nothing is happening, but something is happening - the heat energy is melting the ice rather than raising the water temperature. Only when all the ice is melted is the heat energy finally able to warm up the water temperature.

Doesn't this make you think of the spiritual life? We may feel as though we work and work to grow in virtue but with no results. Sometimes in our prayer we may feel that we are stuck, that we have stopped moving closer to God. Where is He? Why can’t we reach Him? He may seem very far away. Well, God is often working in the secret of our hearts. Sometimes there are hard, icy parts of us that need to melt before the heat of God’s love can continue to transform other aspects of our lives. We can’t always see those bits and pieces of ice hidden often so deep within our souls, and thankfully God usually reveals them to us just a little at a time so as not to overwhelm us. But if we pray, if we partake of the sacrament, then we are applying heat – the heat of God’s love and mercy. Change is taking place, we must just continue to trust and to love.














Photos taken 11.02.12 in Jägala juga and Valkla beach.
LOve
A.

Trust is the word

Everybody, everywhere
seeks happiness, it’s true,
But finding it and keeping it
seem difficult to do.
Difficult because we think
that happiness is found
Only in the places where
wealth and fame abound.
And so we go on searching
in palaces of pleasure
Seeking recognition
and monetary treasure,
Unaware that happiness
is just a state of mind
Within the reach of everyone
who takes time to be kind.
For in making others happy
we will be happy, too.
For the happiness you give away
returns to shine on you.

- Helen Steiner Rice-

Usaldus. Miks on meil nii raske usaldada? Maailmas, mis iga päev otsib uut väljakutset, uut põnevust, leida see miski, mis toob hetkeks rõõmu ja rahuldust.
Igaüks justkui elab endale, enda vajadustele- saada rohkem kogemusi, rohkem võimalusi, rohkem raha, tarkust.
Milleks see kõik? Kuhu on kadunud usaldus... inimeste vahel, usaldus Jumala vastu?
Me tahame saada palju, aga pole nõus loobuma mitte millestki.
Olete märganud, et loobudes millestki, koged suurt muutust oma elus? Mis sellest, et alguses on raske. Meie loomuses on raske millestki loobuda.
Aga kõige põnevam on see, et mida rohkem me usaldame oma mured, probleemid, vead Jumala kätte, seda kergem meil endal on.
Meie taevane Isa tahab võtta meilt need koormad, ükskõik kui rasked need meile endale tunduvad.
Koos Temaga, on kõik võimalik.
Usu mind, Ta tahab meid siiralt aidata, kui me vaid lubaksime... kui me vaid usaldaksime.

Where there is faith in God, there is hope. Where there is hope, there is peace. Where there is peace, there is FREEDOM.

Miks ainult siis, kui on rasked olukorrad, oskame otsida ja usaldada Jumalat? Nagu oleks see viimane koht, kust abi otsida. Kuid miks mitte õppida usaldama Teda iga päev, igapäevastes otsustes, oma rutiinsetes tegevustes.

As children bring their broken toys
With tears for us to mend,
I brought my broken dreams to God
Because He was my friend.

But then instead of leaving Him
In peace to work alone,
I hung around and tried to help
With ways that were my own.

At last I snatched them back and cried,
“How could you be so slow”
“My child,” He said, “What could I do?
You never did let go.”

Dear Lord,
I trust that I deserve unconditional love.
All my problems, my thoughts and my days,
all I I have I put my trust in You.
You are my refuge and fortress,
My God in You I will trust.

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=J4mUtJkXSbo&feature=related

A.

Let your dreams always be greater than your memories!

Aasta 2012:
uus algus, uus lootus ja uued mõtted. Otsustasin mõned mõtted jagada :)

Jõulutuhin möödas, on kätte jõudnud hetked, kus on võimalik lihtsalt olla: rahus, oma mõtetega, ideedega ja eelkõige Jumalaga. Otsida, otsida..

On aega märgata kodusoojust, loodust ja inimesi enda ümber.

Aeg märgata uut, mida meie Taevane Isa on tegemas meie keskel...

Your greatest ministry is before and not behind you.
Your greatest days are ahead and not behind you.
Your greatest marriage memories are in your future and not in your past.

Your best moments with your kids have yet to happen.

Your greatest accomplishments are before you

Don´t let your past limits define your future, but let the Word of God and His promises define your future!

Poem, that just melted my heart:

For today we`re facing problems
Man alone can never solve,
For it takes much more than genius
To determine and resolve
The conditions that confront us
All around on every side,
Daily mounting in intensity
like the restless, rising tide

But we´ll find new Strength and Wisdom
If instead of proud resistance...
We humbly call upon the Lord
And seek Divine Assistance;
For the spirit can unravel
Many tangled, knotted threads
That defy the skill and power
Of the world`s best hands and heads.

For the plans of growth and progress
Of which we all have dreamed,
Cannot survive materially
Unless the spirit is redeemed.
So as another Year dawns,
Let us seek the Lord in prayer
And place our future hopes and plans
Securely in God´s care.

Written by Helen S. Rice




Rõõmu teile,
A.

My very last day in Australia..

Uskumatu, et see hetk on käes- viimane päev Austraalias.
Ei oska enam isegi midagi tunda, kuna viimased nädalad on olnud tõesti nii varieeruvate emotsioonidega. Ühel hetkel olen nii õnnelik, et saan näha oma kalleid juba KOHE kohe, ja teisalt olen nii kurb, et minust jäävad maha inimesed, kellega nii lähedaseks sain. Ja juba sellele mõeldes, olen taas oma emotsioonidega kimpus.
Tegelikult olen väga õnnelik, kuna tean et see on mu elu parim aasta :) Ja lihtsalt pole sõnu, et seda kirjeldada.
Olen tänulik, selle aja eest siin, mil olen niii palju muutunud, näinud ja kogenud. Ei vahetaks neid kogemusi mitte millegi vastu.

Don´t forget to be different, to make a difference!

Eilne viimane koosolek Hills campuses oli lihtsalt vapustav. Tundsin, kuidas kogu see õhtu Jumal kinnitas mind, et olen valmis tagasi minema ja terve koosoleku sõnum ( Pricilla Shirer) oli:

We have no business to go back to the place we were yesterday. We have no business to settle in our insecurities. Don´t position yourself to a wrong place. You do not need what you think you need- we believe little, because we have seen little.


Nii hea on omada unistusi, plaane ja neid step-by step ellu viia. Kui ma pidin siia tulema kasvõi ühel põhjusel- uskuda, et MINA võin midagi muuta. ( mitte omast jõust küll :) Aga mitte lihtsalt mõelda, vaid mõelda suurelt. Ja panna kogu oma usalduse Jumala peale, loota Temale- sest nii on lihtsalt nii palju kergem.

Mina, Jacinda ja tema õde Janessa- tema tuli ja mina lähen. Meie 3 ühist päeva koos loomas mälestusi, mis jäävad sügavale südamesse.




Other people may call you however they want, but there is no-one who can give you name beside your Father.


It´s not about words coming out from your mouth, it´s about believing.


LOVE IS ON the way!
A.

Fireproof

Never leave your partner behind, especially in a fire!

Uskumatu, kohe kohe olen siin teisel pool maakera olnud juba 6 kuud. Paratamatult olen mõtetes juba oma kallite juures tagasi eestis ja ei suuda ära oodata millal Teid kõiki taas näen.
See aeg siin on olnud ilus ja kogemusterohke, kuid samas ka üks raskemaid aegu mu elus.
Tihti üritame teistele jätta mulje, et elame ideaalset elu ja kõik on lihtsalt super hästi, kuid sisimas oleme väsinud. Neid raskusi, mida siin läbi olen elanud, tean ainult mina ja Jumal :) aga usun, et nii ongi kõige parem. Läbi selle kõige olen muutunud nii palju tugevamaks, enesekindlamaks ja tean, kuhu olen teel. Parem on elus riskida ja võitlustest läbi minna , kui elada neutraalset elu, mis ei vii mitte kuskile.


You can’t just follow your heart. Your heart can be deceived. You have to lead your heart.

Eile oli mu viimane kodugrupp- tundsin nii suurt tänu nende inimeste eest, kellega oma rõõme ja muresid olen jagada saanud.
Nii tähtis on elus omada sõpru, kes sind inspireerivad, julgustavad ja edasi viivad.

In the morning when you rise,
I bless the sun, I bless the skies,
I bless your lips, I bless your eyes,
My blessing goes with you.

In the night-time when you sleep,
Oh, I bless you, while a watch
I keep,
As you lie in slumber deep,
My blessing goes with you.

Fireproof doesn't mean the fire will never come. It means when the fire comes that you will be able to withstand it.

You can't determine what confronts you in life, but you can determine what follows you! Psalm 23:6

Kes meist ei tahaks elada õigesti. Tänu sellele paneme oma energia ja tähelepanu sellele, kuidas seda saavutada. Hiljuti just mõistsin, et mu sees on koguaeg olnud selline tungiv vajadus olla piisavalt hea, aga nii palju situatsioone ja olukordi siin elus on üle minu võimete.
See pole "õigesti" elamine, millele peaksime keskenduma, tähtis on meie südame hoiak.

Whatever you put your time,energy and money into,it will become more important to you.It's hard to care for something you're not investing in.
Don`t "try"- Decide

When your weary heart is tired,
If the world should leave you uninspired,
When nothing more of love's desired,
My blessing goes with you.

When the storms of life are strong,
When you're wounded, when you don't belong,
When you no longer hear my song,
My blessing goes with you.

Praegused nädalad on meil siin koolis Intensive weeks, kus
valmistume Hillsong Conference`iks. Olen veel natuke tõbine ja võtan antibiootikume, et oma kuuajapikkusest köhast lahti saada :)Aga samas olen nii ülimalt põnevil- viimased 3 nädalat veel veeta talvises austraalias.
http://anderskjondal.com.au/no/commercial/hillsongconference2010/

Ootusärevus on suur*

A.